恶梦，请你快点走

我想你应该不敢喝酒了吧。 第一次看你喝的这么烂醉， 还呕在别人的头发。你实在太够力了。 不会喝就不要学人家喝，难受的是自己而已 到最后还是把车给撞坏了。 真的是服了你， 那么大的墙你都可以撞上，你要自杀啊！大白痴。 驾车要专心，你的心去了哪里？ 我想你的心死了。 你每天都过得很忙， 天还没亮就上班，天黑了才下班。 总于明白了吧，不够睡是多么难受。 你有试过驾着车一直打瞌睡吗？ 在高速公路那样你知道有有多危险吗？ 难道你的性命都不要了吗？ 请你早点睡吧。不要在想了。 想再多还是没用的。 请不要再梦见他了。 请你不要每次来她的梦里，然后又再一次走开， 那是多么心痛的感觉。

一样

Suddenly think back my blog.. Ya, I got a blog, haha ... Snow fish is back. Finally met already, it's been 2 month half ... Time pass very fast,things keep changing .. 人生如梦。 为何还要寻梦？ But me still same... 思念变成了一种习惯 Will easy feel want to cry, down,stress We can't control what other people think, this fact everyone also know, however you will still care what others think of you. This is reality . 至少我已尽力。 我喜欢海边散步。 感觉很浪漫！ Especially can see blue sea. See other people can freedomly swim . It just like a fish . I wish I also can . first time swim, water keep go in nose and eye. Really very suffer. If can become a fish that will be great. 失忆的鱼😂 听说鱼三分钟就会忘了之前发生的事和做过的事。

Water day

THe trip with AAC 9 very memorable and it make me never forget the incident on the water. I feel so shame after I cry, all them saw me crying.... So embarrassing....First try on these call banana ride. Its really horrible, maybe is dunno swimming, it make people easy get hurt. One of the friend ah mi get hurt. And me, because of the sudden drop in the water, I keep drinking water, and nose keep go in water, I keep sink in the water, feel very suffer, suddenly got people pull me up. I feel very scared. And just keep crying.Oh my god, Thinking back also feel uncomfortable. First time having bbq with them. The feeling is tired.... My hand want broken....and really very hot. Keep face the hot air.... Its very hard to mention the feeling, first time join AAC 9 group to play so extremely sport activity. And i need to mention, all the activity was on the water. For me, I really dunno swimming. Feel very scared and nervous. But it also a nice experience for me to try all these. Since maybe will need to wait long time only can meet all of them. All member will have their own lifestyle, some of them need to back hometown, and some already need to start their working life.... Actually I feel very worry about my future path. and him also. Seem like everyone already have their own future planning, but both of us still like no direction, still like kid... Both of us stay so far, will it be a challenge for me? I feel very uncomfortable.... Gambate ba, pls dun so easy cry...

Stress

Finally have a new look to this post. Feel like everything also stress, no direction after graduated from college. Keep asking myself whether this is the correct path for me in the future. UK...Need many money... I'm really scare I does not have the ability to graduate from there... It seem very difficult for me, in deep of my heart, just myself know how much ability i have... Study really tired, read back all the account note, suddenly feel very headache. I realized all my study feel disappear. In my mine just thinking of how can I earn as much as money to UK. Already use so much of family money, but until now also not yet earn back to them. Other people say, study more will earn more. But the main problem is I not yet earn. Go to UK need so much money, besides too many thing I need to buy. This is call demand more than supply. Currently keep finding job. I realize got many job available, but I cant feel like want to apply. Maybe I feel no confident toward myself. It seem like I know nothing toward working. Once work everything will change. People scare to change. This include me. I like to remain constant. But in my life, nothing is constant. People keep changing. Recently I cant fall asleep, keep thinking study, family,him and friend. Learn from him, try to pray 'xin jin' everyday. Try to be positive, (but sometime is will feel negative too). Keep looking forward, any unhappy things and bad feeling will go away starting tomorrow. Already four years college life, it was passed so fast, until cant react what should I do in the future. This four years many thing happen... Finally I graduate from advance. It was a tough period Suddenly feel that accountant not suitable to me. To be a teacher more good, have many holiday plus have more free time to play. My bro already get his SPM result. It was fantastic great. 8As I was so shock. How could people that no study so much, keep playing game, also can get so great result. This world is not fair. My mum keep ask me what he should choose to study. Honestly tell, I dunno. What i know is once you decide to choose or do something, you must take all the responsibility on the outcome.

im back

use so long time to find username and password because really long long long long time no post blog le... one of the reason is i dun dare to open and write...and the facebook... cause scare to see...seem like very funny. bt it is real... this is the first time i look at her blog,only know many thing happen... i feel sorry to make you all sad, cause before that i tot that you all dun wan see me, even hate too... therefore, i dun dare to interference... it seem like a dream when v can together again, really... maybe you all dun believe, that night i cant fall asleep... since long time no see and talk... v sure have gaps between us... i dun dare to aspect more... just want to say thank you to you all... i really appreciate the time when v together... hope that v can sing again, go out walk walk,shopping, drink tea... just like before... i will wish you all healthy and happy always... together gambate =)

真挚=真诚

什么是真挚？我查过字典了，意识是真诚。

一直以来，我以为我的问题是没有实现我的承诺，就因为已经答应了，所以我更觉得对不起。
但最近我知道了不是那样的。

再多的解释也就是掩饰， 这句话常听别人说。
我们之间已无信任存在，再多的解释对你而言也只是借口。
真挚的友谊是需要信任才能维持。

你已认定那人是骗子，你觉得你还会相信那人的话吗？
我不需要证明什么，就算全部人都不相信我也没关系，
我知， 天知，地知。

不管面对什么难题，最重要是乐观面对。
我知道那是很难做到的。
但是，是难，不是不可能。
因为想乐观的事情，乐观就会找上我们， 想悲观的事情，坏的事情就会找上我们。

我知道现在的你生活的很开心，
我知道我的存在只会影响你的情绪。
就算我们谈了，也不能回到以前。
我不会打扰你的生活，
人，最重要是乐观和活的开心，身体健康。
所以，你生活开心就好。

真挚的友谊是可贵的， 也是最难得的。所以一定要珍惜。
面对真诚的人是最自然，也是最开心的。

谢谢你告诉我问题在哪里。
对不起令你担心。
谢谢你，还把我当成你在乎的人。
天蝎常常表面上看起来不在乎，其实心里在乎的要命，只不过天蝎也习惯了这样的掩饰。

我们不能改变以前的事，但是我们有能力改变以后的事。
珍惜平常人生，珍惜每一刻。
加油吧。我的朋友们。

不开心？

他说我变开心了，但她变得不开心了。
为什么会这样？
我不知道。

我变开心了是因为我发现，
要珍惜当下所拥有的，
因为我们都不知未来。。
所以能活一天，就觉得很庆幸。
因为生命是很脆弱的，时间过了就不能从来，
所以更要开心去面对现在过的每一天。
这样想，就觉得好过一些了吧。

我不知道她发生的事情，不知道为什么她不开心，
我真的有做错什么而让她不开心的吗？
你可以告诉我吗？

刚刚在facebook,看到了她post的东西，
她淋雨了，我不知道她没扇，不然我一定会遮她 。
同时也觉得内疚， 我不是那个让她开怀大笑的朋友。

我觉得我们很少说话了，
从我接受他那一天开始。
是我多想了吗？
我不懂。
或许是你不想我担心，才不跟我说，
但是看到你这样，我会不担心吗？

之从被打劫的那一天开始，
我就看开了，
那时心里真的很感谢老天爷，
只让我受了轻伤，
没把我带走，
这让我更珍惜现在跟家人，跟朋友一起的时间。

我希望明天的你是开心的，
我可以要回开朗的她吗?