Water day

THe trip with AAC 9 very memorable and it make me never forget the incident on the water. I feel so shame after I cry, all them saw me crying.... So embarrassing....First try on these call banana ride. Its really horrible, maybe is dunno swimming, it make people easy get hurt. One of the friend ah mi get hurt. And me, because of the sudden drop in the water, I keep drinking water, and nose keep go in water, I keep sink in the water, feel very suffer, suddenly got people pull me up. I feel very scared. And just keep crying.Oh my god, Thinking back also feel uncomfortable. First time having bbq with them. The feeling is tired.... My hand want broken....and really very hot. Keep face the hot air.... Its very hard to mention the feeling, first time join AAC 9 group to play so extremely sport activity. And i need to mention, all the activity was on the water. For me, I really dunno swimming. Feel very scared and nervous. But it also a nice experience for me to try all these. Since maybe will need to wait long time only can meet all of them. All member will have their own lifestyle, some of them need to back hometown, and some already need to start their working life.... Actually I feel very worry about my future path. and him also. Seem like everyone already have their own future planning, but both of us still like no direction, still like kid... Both of us stay so far, will it be a challenge for me? I feel very uncomfortable.... Gambate ba, pls dun so easy cry...

Stress

Finally have a new look to this post. Feel like everything also stress, no direction after graduated from college. Keep asking myself whether this is the correct path for me in the future. UK...Need many money... I'm really scare I does not have the ability to graduate from there... It seem very difficult for me, in deep of my heart, just myself know how much ability i have... Study really tired, read back all the account note, suddenly feel very headache. I realized all my study feel disappear. In my mine just thinking of how can I earn as much as money to UK. Already use so much of family money, but until now also not yet earn back to them. Other people say, study more will earn more. But the main problem is I not yet earn. Go to UK need so much money, besides too many thing I need to buy. This is call demand more than supply. Currently keep finding job. I realize got many job available, but I cant feel like want to apply. Maybe I feel no confident toward myself. It seem like I know nothing toward working. Once work everything will change. People scare to change. This include me. I like to remain constant. But in my life, nothing is constant. People keep changing. Recently I cant fall asleep, keep thinking study, family,him and friend. Learn from him, try to pray 'xin jin' everyday. Try to be positive, (but sometime is will feel negative too). Keep looking forward, any unhappy things and bad feeling will go away starting tomorrow. Already four years college life, it was passed so fast, until cant react what should I do in the future. This four years many thing happen... Finally I graduate from advance. It was a tough period Suddenly feel that accountant not suitable to me. To be a teacher more good, have many holiday plus have more free time to play. My bro already get his SPM result. It was fantastic great. 8As I was so shock. How could people that no study so much, keep playing game, also can get so great result. This world is not fair. My mum keep ask me what he should choose to study. Honestly tell, I dunno. What i know is once you decide to choose or do something, you must take all the responsibility on the outcome.

im back

use so long time to find username and password because really long long long long time no post blog le... one of the reason is i dun dare to open and write...and the facebook... cause scare to see...seem like very funny. bt it is real... this is the first time i look at her blog,only know many thing happen... i feel sorry to make you all sad, cause before that i tot that you all dun wan see me, even hate too... therefore, i dun dare to interference... it seem like a dream when v can together again, really... maybe you all dun believe, that night i cant fall asleep... since long time no see and talk... v sure have gaps between us... i dun dare to aspect more... just want to say thank you to you all... i really appreciate the time when v together... hope that v can sing again, go out walk walk,shopping, drink tea... just like before... i will wish you all healthy and happy always... together gambate =)