Stress

Finally have a new look to this post. Feel like everything also stress, no direction after graduated from college. Keep asking myself whether this is the correct path for me in the future. UK...Need many money... I'm really scare I does not have the ability to graduate from there... It seem very difficult for me, in deep of my heart, just myself know how much ability i have... Study really tired, read back all the account note, suddenly feel very headache. I realized all my study feel disappear. In my mine just thinking of how can I earn as much as money to UK. Already use so much of family money, but until now also not yet earn back to them. Other people say, study more will earn more. But the main problem is I not yet earn. Go to UK need so much money, besides too many thing I need to buy. This is call demand more than supply. Currently keep finding job. I realize got many job available, but I cant feel like want to apply. Maybe I feel no confident toward myself. It seem like I know nothing toward working. Once work everything will change. People scare to change. This include me. I like to remain constant. But in my life, nothing is constant. People keep changing. Recently I cant fall asleep, keep thinking study, family,him and friend. Learn from him, try to pray 'xin jin' everyday. Try to be positive, (but sometime is will feel negative too). Keep looking forward, any unhappy things and bad feeling will go away starting tomorrow. Already four years college life, it was passed so fast, until cant react what should I do in the future. This four years many thing happen... Finally I graduate from advance. It was a tough period Suddenly feel that accountant not suitable to me. To be a teacher more good, have many holiday plus have more free time to play. My bro already get his SPM result. It was fantastic great. 8As I was so shock. How could people that no study so much, keep playing game, also can get so great result. This world is not fair. My mum keep ask me what he should choose to study. Honestly tell, I dunno. What i know is once you decide to choose or do something, you must take all the responsibility on the outcome.