Finally finish exam....

Yesterday was my last day exam...FOA...
Who say resit easy??
The first question already dunno do ler...
HAIZ....LET IT BE...
Hope i can pass...
Please... i just want pass only...

Yesterday go sing k again...
Haha...
actually eye almost want close already...
But still want go sing k...
I realise...
I just know JJ and rynn song...
Lol...
Darling ask me...why sit so far?
Actually i just want sleep only...
Dun think so much...

I want say...
Darling...you become mature after cut hair...
Nice...i like it...and...
Darling...dun so emo...
I think they just 'say say' only...
They won't change class ...i think...
haha...
And also no need worry me...
I am ok... really...
But dunno he ok or not...

Exam finish already...
Now want think many thing...
Hehe...
The important thing : MONEY
I want change computer!!!
But i not enough money...
Haiz...
My mom call me go work...
But dunno where can work...
Really dun want go back there work again...

please.....study ....snowfish....

Dunno why see on the FOA note, but my brain already dunno at where....
I cannot find the mood to study ...but i know i should not do like that...
Finally, i online again...haiz...
Just now see darling blog....
i know she worry momo again...
Dun like people sad, especially is my friend...

Sorry for making you emo again...
you are right, you are not computer...
me cannot force you to forget ...
because me also cannot forgot...
can i take back my promise?
because i dun wan forget what you already tell me...
if bad memory can click a delete button...
then no one will sad or feel unhappy again...

after giving you see my blog, i really feel regret...
because make you so emo and unhappy...
but i really angry when you call me to dun be you frend...
Please forget what i write...please...
that time while see you msg, you keep remind me dun cry, dun sad...
But i want say i dun have cry...
really dunno what can i do...so that you will not feel so emo...
still remember you got send me one msg,
that time you call me dun =( sad , i give you this =) smile...
for me actually at that moment really touch... i also dunno why...haha..
for you i dunno got use or not, then just use back this method ...haha..

dun like people say sorry to me...
but i want say sorry to you...really sorry ...
me always say dun want hurt by people, but me already hurt you...
at last really sorry...sorry...

really want go back study ler...really dun want resit again...
and gambateh momo a za darling...
i always be yourside, support you...

still got one exam paper only!!!

Finally, yesterday finish exam the OHR paper...
Really dunno how to do....just write only...haiz...
Now i pray i can pass all my paper....
i just want pass only...please...i dun want resit anymore...
Now just left one paper...That paper is FOA, hope dun so difficult....

Today go out sing k...eye...tired...leg...tired...brain also tired....
hahahaha...
Erm....I want ask, izzit cute is equal to 'daogei'?
Ya, i know me really 'daogei'...
Beside 'daogei' i also no brain and inertia...
haiz...
Is ok, me already know this long long time ago...
Until now still cannot change this reality...

He ask me that question again....
Actually i really really dunno answer...
Because myself also dunno why will feel afraid....
i ask darling, why me will be feel afraid ...
darling say ask myself...
darling say i really a weird girl...
i agree... really weird...
the fear is come out naturally ...i thought i can overcome that fear...
But the result come out is cannot...
He is a good person, everyone know, me also know...
why i will feel afraid when facing him??
Keep asking myself this question...
Really dunno, head very pain now....hahahaha....
Now already really dun understand myself ....

That event already pass long long long time....
First sem or second sem ? Already dunno which sem ...
But the most important thing is I already know that time he was just kidding only...
But.... as i know is still got a bit influence.... a bit... just a bit....
Sometime really will feel zero confident when facing him...
But when facing with other person will also feel no confident...
hahaha.....
Even sometime will feel a bit scare when facing with he, maybe is scare him will say that kind of word to me again...
But as i know that is earlier reason...
Now i think he won say like that to me ler ba...
Then now what i am afraid about??
Haiz....

Already write so many thing, no answer come out....
My question can not find out the solution...Haiz....
Dun want think anymore...
just let it be...keep asking me also dun have answer...
Now want study FOA !!!!
Just left one paper only...

Exam......medicine....again....

Haiz.....
regret eat mcd ..
Yesterday, after eat mcd, already feel pain from the throat....
Exam...ing...What can i do?
haiz~~ Medicine again...

today having a bad luck...
no voice, no lift, no parking , no water...
Actually, today just need accompany my mom go pasar only....
unfortunately, lift rosak ...
my mom call me go by myself....
After go pasar, no parking....
need walk a long way ....Haiz~~ tired...
Finish bought things, then go clinic see doctor...
Last time brought my brother, this time is my turn go see doctor...
Back home...no lift... need walk stairs...13 floor...Haiz...
Back home...no water...whole building also no water...Haiz..

He already remind me must take care, drink more water...
Because now exam...but...
i am sick again...fever again....38 degree again....
Throat feel pain...now already no voice come out...
regret...ing...if i no eat mcd....
every time also like that, after did something, will feel regret...
really stupid ah....
really can realise i am no brain one...=(
Before that, actually already know throat got a bit pain, still decide want eat mcd...

Yesterday, got try something new at time square with darling, shenny, fuiling,sin yin, wan ting, mei yin and amanda...
We having a full makeup...
They say need to complete a folio, so need a model to make up...
After finish make up, everyone look very different...
Everyone look mature and pretty ...
Erm~ except me...
Erm~ i think my eye got bigger a bit lar ...
haha~~

First time having a full make up...
Erm~~ first time got many type of cosmetic put on my face...
Erm~~ really unlike and uncomfortable...
Especially the eye...
She put so many thing on my eye...
Lol~~ next time dun dare to try anymore...

After finish make up, need take picture...
Erm~~ need posing too...Haiz...
I really dunno posing ...sad...=(
Finally she teach me how to pose when facing the camera...
Posing like a model...

Erm~~ what i know is make up need many time...
Removed make up also need many time...
I think she really a patient person...
Because she already stand many hour to do the make up and removed the make up...
Erm~~ what i know is after removed make up, eye feel more comfortable...
Feel like got release something...
Before removed, eye feel like very heavy...

After that, we go try cloth...Hehe~~
Erm~~ really like that two cloth...But the price...
Haha...i am dun have money lar...
But got take picture, now is fui ling teach me how to posing ler...
Erm...messy the hair and dun smile...
Haha...me change bad already...

Sometime will feel really confused...
Izzit want to be strong is equal to became bad...Dunno...
Now i can't feel i already became stronger...
What i can feel is i became bad girl already...
Recently, my brother really rich...
Last sunday, buy new psp..
cost Rm830...use his own money...Haiz...
Me? nothing buy...
no money...no money...
Now dun want think so much things...
Dun want think laptop...
mp4...
handphone...
bag...
shoes...
and...
haha...

Now just want faster recover...
Hope the coming exam paper not so difficult...
I dun want resit anymore...Please!!!
Gambateh anyone...^^
A za snowfish too...

need a happy snow fish life

Just now click wrongly on shenny status~ now feel regrade~~ sorry~
Because at that moment i think what shenny say is correct de.......
Start a happy life~ Forgot all about that person.....everything....
sorry darling, for making you worry...........
Because me suddenly offline......
at that moment really not ok......
dunno how to reply you all...
really dunno....
then i just offline, go to sleep....

At the bed,dunno why? i am very not ok!! cry...ing...again...again....
me already say my heart very weak !!!!
why tell me all this??
at that time really cannot accept...
haiz.....
see wrong people le....

This make me think back all the bad memory....
especially when you all say outlooking person....
all the bad memory come back in my brain....
paksa me face all the reality....
that memory is my nightmare....
make me cannot sleep well whole night....
what can i do?
nothing.....do nothing.....cannot change anything....
that bad memory keep remind me ....
can someone tell me, izzit appearance very important??
ya, maybe....
all boy like see pretty girl, all girl like to see handsome boy....
this is reality....haha

darling call me forgot....
i agree....forgot...
no need think too much...
he really not good....
actually, he no do something that make me still need remember him....

Haiz....
but something is cannot forgot ....
i still remember that person name who make this nightmare to me...
i already use 5 years to forgot that bad memory....
but now still remain inside my heart...my brain....
cannot forget....
eye fill with many water....
pain come out from heart.....
Lol.....
become crazy le....

darling ask why me now still scare your brother....
i dunno....
really dunno....
maybe he is the person that make me think back that bad memory....
so now very scare him....haha
i know sometime he was just kidding with me....
but dunno why ? also feel afraid ....

really wan thanks momo....
just realise the reality... what type of that person...
now really can forgot that person le....
From now really need start to become stronger ....
dun wan hurt by anyone... anymore...
wan to become a happy snow fish....

keep telling myself, start a new happy life....
with my lovely family , and my friend....

对的时间 ，对的人

常听到别人说"对的时间遇到对的人"。时间真的那么重吗?

哈哈。。我觉得应该是吧。
电影<穿越时空的情书> 所描述的就是时间和命运之间巧妙的际遇，对的人 ，错得时间不行；
错得人 ，对的时间也不行，对的人，对的时间，要看你够不够幸运了
哈哈! 好复杂哦! 那何谓对错呢? 好像只有自己能下定论 。。。

而且有时候‘对的’也有可能因为时间的变化而成为‘错得’，至于时间就更无法控制了，
哈哈，那么要怎么征服时间这难题呢? 我想 答案是:耐心

电影中的男女主角没有其他的方法，只有耐心得等待，等时间的过去，等那个人的出现，
或许有那么的一天。。。。

哈哈， 如果你幸运的话等待将换的对的人出现在对的时间。。。
Really hope i am that lucky person.....


最近看过一篇文章，
故事是关于一个男生 和一个女生。。
女生习惯保持距离，因为她相信只要不去拥有，就不用承受失去的后果和痛苦。。。
男生试图去追求这个他不承想像会遇见或是会爱上的女生。
最后那个女生还是没有接受他。。。
那个男生心碎，不过在很久以后他重新找到份模的到，看得见，属于他的幸福了。。。
女生如解重负，却不懂自己为什么会有失落感。。。
怎么可能她会痛?
竟然会因为失去了一样自己不曾拥有的东西而感到痛苦?

看完了这个故事，觉得蛮有意识得。。。
同时也觉得有点失落。。。
不懂为什么会这样。。。
哈哈，我在想或许那个女生是因为害怕失去，害怕受伤吧。。。
可是她已经失去和受伤了。。。

tired.....really very tired

很累真的很累, 很讨厌现在的自己......
为什么会这样,为什么偏偏是这个时後......
他不ａｃｃｅｐｔ，会难过, 泪也掉过了, 我能做什么, 我想还是 算了吧.....
这也不重要了, 可是为什么老天爷要这样对我呢?

我不要生病, 我不要发烧....
真的很累真的很辛苦.....从来都没有这么辛苦过...
没有使过发烧发到39度....还是要吃了药才退烧的那个.....我快疯掉.....
终于考了ｍａｒｃｏ，还没出门前量了一下温度, 38.4度.....我该怎么办?
算了....死就死吧...进到考场头脑一片空白....
只觉得自己很想睡觉, 很累, 头很重......
算了, 就写吧了.....想到什么就写什么.....第一次这样, 考完了很想哭.....
如果可以再给我多一点时间就好了, 只少现在不用那么后悔......

我不想吃药, 吃了药就会想睡.....就因为这样我变的没有时间读书.....很讨厌这样的自己....
已经吃了两天的面包, 喝肋两天的牛奶......
很讨厌喝牛奶, 很讨厌那种味道...
可是没有办法, 妈说一定要喝 ,所以也勉强喝了下去....
可是每一次都会去厕所把他呕完出来....因为实在太难喝了!!!!!!!

觉得自己最近很倒霉......不想这样, 很想快点好起来.....
可是病毒赢了我.... 烧退了又起, 起了又退.....
真的不想这样.....
谁可以帮我?
我想只有自己帮自己吧.......

现在对着电脑,觉得眼睛很累......觉的眼前的画面变的很模糊.....
很讨厌啊!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
觉得头脑快要爆炸了.....
ｄｅａｒ说写ｂｌｏｇ可以让心情好过一点....
我觉得是的....
我很不甘心啊!!!!!!!!!为什么要这样对我?????????????????
很不喜欢这种感觉啊!!!!!!!!!!!

算了, 再写结果还是一样......
他还是不会ａｃｃｅｐｔ．．． 我也还在生病.......
想开一点吧.....
加油......只能这样对自己说....